Missing a friend
This isn't my usual blog.
It's a nod to a friend.
It's a little personal,,,
but I'm letting you all in.
11 years ago someone close to me breathed her last breath on this earth.
It felt like I was getting punched in the stomach for weeks.
If you've been around a little while you know exactly what I'm talking about.
She left a big hole and bigger shoes to fill. No one has quite done it yet.
She was one of those people that doesn't come along often.
Please don't critique my doctrine here. I don't know how they do things up in heaven.
Whether she has in inbox, or gets messages, or is allowed to take a peak down here.
But this is what I'd say to her today if I could tell her.
" I still miss you Mary. I miss my friend. I miss hanging out and playing guitars and going to guitar stores. But mostly I just miss you.
I think about the things we did and the places we got to go and play music. I think about the faces lighting up and the voices singing sooooo loud. Worshipping Jesus.
I think about you struggling in pain to record those last songs. (Some of your best, I might add)
I’ve still got some things that remind me of you. I’ve got that dumb little pic pouch that you had filled with guitar picks and little knickknacks.
I’ve also got that funny little nail clipper. I fixed it a couple times because I didn’t want to throw it away. But I found one just like it in a shop in Nashville so I bought another one. Probably the same store you got yours in. 🙂
I’m still playing that black guitar. And boy does that thing sound amazing! Thank you!
I’ve beat it up quite a bit. It’s not as pretty as when you had it. I don’t polish it up like you did.
It’s kind of scratched and getting worn. But it’s a happy guitar. It’s playing the same songs that glorify our Savior In the same room that it kind of grew up in.
Anyway, it’s been 11 years and I still think about you and the inspiration you were and still are. Thank you for being such a great friend and an example of what it means to serve Christ.
For being patient with me. Love you. One day we will sing again!